Wednesday, September 16, 2009

I'm not changing my ticker again

Wow, what a day.

We arrived at 10:30 for my doctor's appointment (which ended up being the longest doctor's appointment in the history of appointments) as B and I didn't leave the office until close to 1:30, but that's a whole seperate issue...

Anyway. After waiting in the waiting room for over a half an hour, we got called back and I peed in a cup, had my weight and BP checked. Weight gain was at 28lbs (which I thought was good because I had all my clothes on) and my BP was 120/70, so still great. B and I then went back to the exam room and proceeded to wait for a whole hour. I can't actually believe how long we waited. But, he took the day off, and we were just chatting/hanging out, so it wasn't that bad. If I were by myself, I probably would have been really annoyed. The doc comes in (I hadn't seen her since I was 9 weeks!) and I actually really like her a lot (she and my primary OB are really great) and spent some time answering questions, palpating my stomach, and then sent us back to the waiting room to wait for the rescheduled ultrasound (which was supposed to be at 11:15). We got back for our ultrasound at 1 where we were in for some real shockers. Liam is measuring in the 90th percentile for size. He's measuring over 37 weeks (and 38 weeks in some areas) and is estimated to be 7lb1oz at this point. The weight estimate can be off by a pound in either direction, but I think I might be looking at an 8 or 9lb baby when he comes! GOOD LORD. Either way, he's physically at full term at this point, and while I'm still not ready (mentally) to deliver him, it seems like he'd be totally fine if he were born tomorrow.

I'm just still in shock that he measured so big. Wow. At least he is doing really well. And, I think I am too for being at least a week ahead of where I'm at ;)

36w3d (maybe?)

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

1st day of "Maternity Leave"

Ok, so I put that in quotes because I figure if I work for myself, maternity leave is really kind of silly. If I don't work, I don't get paid. It's not terribly exciting that I have this time off. I'd actually prefer to be working still, but if I do go into labor before my due date, I can't leave my clients high and dry. Nonetheless, I am not working until 2010 and that is wild. I cleaned out my office yesterday, and I will be in pursuit of new office space in the coming year. For now, my attention is the baby, and preparing for his arrival.

I have a list of things I need to complete and then I'll feel a bit more secure.

1) Freezer meals. I just placed an order with Omaha Steaks and Let's Dish and they'll arrive in the next week or two. I'm also planning to cook a few staples this weekend (Pasta Bolognese, Corn Chowder, Chili, Ziti, Casseroles). I'd like to not have to worry about food much for the first month after Liam's arrival. That will be nice.

2) Nursery. This is 90% complete and I am beyond pleased. We just have a few aesthetics such as shades/blinds, as well as the wall letters I ordered from Etsy, and any other wall decor I want to put up. Everything is assembled and put in the right place.

3) Washing clothes. I had to re-wash mostly everything after my mother-in-law washed all the clothes with fabric softener (a big no-no!) and I am mostly done with this, but still have a few odds and ends.

4) Pack hospital bag. I have my list complete, but I actually have to pack it. The idea of this makes me nervous so I am going to wait until some time next week to actually do this. If anyone is curious, here's what is on my list:

Me
- Purse
- Birth plan
- Bathrobe
- Pillow
- Boppy
- Towel (in case of water breaking/leaking)
- Pajamas
- Socks
- Flip flops
- Nipple shield
- Lanolin cream
- Cell phone & charger
- Camera & charger
- laptop & DVD's (Friends and movies)
- Magazines/books
- Pads
- loose fitting underwear
- Nursing bra & nursing pads
- lounge pants & comfortable tops (something to wear home)
- Toothbrush/paste
- moisturizer/face wash
- Belly Bars/protein drinks
- hard candies (jolly ranchers)
- deodorant
- Shampoo
- brush
- hair ties
Liam
- going home outfit
- Mittens & socks
- Blanket & receiving blanket
- Baby book (for footprint)
- 10-12 newborn sized diapers

5) Finances in order. We're going to pay off a major credit card in the coming week and it's going to be great. We paid off our AmEx this morning (the APR was exceeding 10%) and it was blissful.

6) Wills. Not excited about this, but it's necessary.

7) Clean out fridge. I am waiting until that real "nesting" urge kicks in and then I will remove all the stuff in there, wipe and sanitize, put it back in. If I am really feeling a strong urge, I'll tackle the oven too. Probably not.

I think that's all I can think of off the top of my head. Luckily, none of those are too daunting.
I have my 36 week appointment tomorrow and an ultrasound to measure growth as well as the baby's position (head down unless he has somehow turned in the past day). Will report back after that!

36w2d

Saturday, September 12, 2009

36 weeks

This week has been interesting. Filled with good days and bad days but mostly I'm ok. The other day, the weather was terrible (overcast, rainy) and I felt like crap. My joints hurts, I ached and I really felt like I couldn't get out of bed. It was rough. The next day I was completely fine. Sleep has been so hit or miss, and it's frustrating. I wake up at some point on my back no matter what I do. This leaves me feeling sore and achy. I am trying my best to sleep on my side and I'll probably have to bust out the snoogle again tonight and see how that goes.

I still feel like there's so much to do (car seat installation, hospital bag packing, finishing up the nursery) and there really is only a finite amount of time left for this. I'm trying not to stress. I only have 2 more days of work and then I don't work again until 2010. This is a wild concept!

I'm annoyed with my weight gain. I was really hoping to finish the pregnancy with 30lbs but I know it's going to be 35. I seem to be gaining 1.5-2 a week even though nothing about my diet has changed at all. My right foot is still a bit swollen regardless of how much I elevate it/drink tons of water, etc. I guess if these are the worst problems I have, I'm doing ok :)

In other news, it looks like Liam's middle name will be Henry. I love the name combination but this is B's middle name as well as my sister in law's son's middle name. Being Jewish, this fundamentally goes against what I believe in, but I guess like everything else, you have to make sacrifices. Liam is named for my mom (Linda) and Henry will be for B's dad/grandfather, even though he keeps telling people that Henry is named for him. I guess this is the problem I have. If B didn't have Henry as his middle name as well as my nephew, this would be no big deal. Ugh. I feel so stuck with this.

Anyway, speaking of Liam, here is what is going on with him:

Your baby is still packing on the pounds — at the rate of about an ounce a day. He now weighs almost 6 pounds (like a crenshaw melon) and is more than 18 1/2 inches long. He's shedding most of the downy covering of hair that covered his body as well as the vernix caseosa, the waxy substance that covered and protected his skin during his nine-month amniotic bath. Your baby swallows both of these substances, along with other secretions, resulting in a blackish mixture, called meconium, will form the contents of his first bowel movement. At the end of this week, your baby will be considered full-term. (Full-term is 37 to 42 weeks; babies born before 37 weeks are pre-term and those born after 42 are post-term.) Most likely he's in a head-down position. But if he isn't, your practitioner may suggest scheduling an "external cephalic version," which is a fancy way of saying she'll try to coax your baby into a head-down position by manipulating him from the outside of your belly.


How far along? 36 weeks
Total weight gain: 28lbs (I'm going to surpass my goal of 30lbs :( )
Maternity clothes? Yes
Stretch marks? Still crossing my fingers for none on my stomach... worried about the weeks to come.
Sleep: 50/50
Best moment this week: Sleeping through the night once without waking up to switch sides. I guess I should be fortunate that I haven't woken up to pee since about 9 weeks...
Movement: Nothing has changed in this department
Food cravings: None
Gender: boy
Labor Signs: None!
Belly Button in or out? I guess I was wrong about it popping at this point. The husband thinks it isn't going to happen at all.
What I miss: Normal sleeping
What I am looking forward to: 48 hours from now when I am officially on "Maternity Leave" though when you own your own business, it isn't is glamorous as it sounds ;)
Milestone: 1 week from full term

ok, technically, this pic was taken several days before 36 weeks, but it looks ok, in my opinion, so I am going to use it :)



















36w

Saturday, September 5, 2009

35 weeks (+1 day - sorry!)

I'm less than 35 and 35! 35 weeks (and 1 day), with 34 days left to go. Wow. The time is kind of flying by. I'm starting to reach the point of being very uncomfortable sometimes. I imagine in a week or two I might actually be something that resembles miserable, but I am hoping not. I just feel very large and I have trouble standing for any length of time. I also simply cannot walk around without my two hands supporting my hips/lower back. I must look hilarious. Or very pregnant. I am starting to get the "OMG when are you due?" comments from strangers. That's always fun. Not.

I've managed to not freak out (much) when my wedding ring sometimes doesn't fit in the morning. I can still get my engagement ring on without a problem, but the wedding ring is a half size smaller. By the afternoon, I can wear both typically. For the record, my wedding ring is a size 3 1/2. And, I'm not totally freaking out when I think it looks like my feet are just a tiny bit bigger than they were before. Actually, it's just my right foot, which is a little odd.

It's all worth it though... I am beyond thrilled to meet Liam. I can't wait to see what color eyes he has, what color hair he has (if he has any!) and what he looks like... what is personality will be like. It's really incredible. And, just a little while longer!!

We had our last hurrah yesterday as a family of two, and threw a BBQ for 20 of our friends. Two of our friends brought their kids (one was 21 months and the other was 5 weeks). It was so fun to be around little boys!

Today we finished off our registry ($400 worth - ouch) and now we finally have just about everything we need for when Liam arrives. We just need to install the carseat/bases and get them inspected. I ordered some super cute wooden wall letters from Etsy and they should be here in a few weeks. We'll put them above the crib, and then I'll feel like the nursery is more complete. Even though we plan to have Liam in the pack n' play next to our bed for the first couple of months, it'll be good to know that his room is ready for him!

Baby Center update: Your baby doesn't have much room to maneuver now that he's over 18 inches long and tips the scales at 5 1/4 pounds (pick up a honeydew). Because it's so snug in your womb, he isn't likely to be doing somersaults anymore, but the number of times he kicks should remain about the same. His kidneys are fully developed now, and his liver can process some waste products. Most of his basic physical development is now complete — he'll spend the next few weeks putting on weight.

How far along? 35 weeks
Total weight gain: 26lbs
Maternity clothes? Yes, but still proud that I can wear non-mat things too :)
Stretch marks? Butt - yes, stomach - no.
Sleep: Still having good nights and bad nights.
Best moment this week: Realizing that I am going to have a baby next month (OR SOONER!)
Movement: Still pretty regular
Food cravings: None
Gender: boy
Labor Signs: None, but sometimes it does feel like he's sitting low, but it is probably just my muscles stretching out.
Belly Button in or out? hasn't quite popped
What I miss: My waist
What I am looking forward to: 9 days from now when I don't have to worry about work for quite some time.
Milestone: 35 & 35!




















35w1d



Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Sunday, August 30, 2009

34 weeks

I'm starting to get into that "OMG how are we going to get everything done?" mode. We have somewhere between 3-7 weeks to get this all together. I have faith that everything will get done, but it's starting to become super real that in the next month or so, there's going to be another person living in my house :)

I'm still doing pretty well, even though I feel utterly huge at this point. I keep wondering how much bigger my stomach can get! I'm happy with my weight gain, but I just can't imagine that my stomach is ever going to look normal again :/

This is one of my favorite updates so far: Your baby now weighs about 4 3/4 pounds (like your average cantaloupe) and is almost 18 inches long. His fat layers — which he'll need to regulate his body temperature once he's born — are filling him out, making him rounder. His skin is also smoother than ever. His central nervous system is maturing and his lungs are continuing to mature as well. If you've been nervous about preterm labor, you'll be happy to know that babies born between 34 and 37 weeks who have no other health problems generally do fine. They may need a short stay in the neonatal nursery and may have a few short-term health issues, but in the long run, they usually do as well as full-term babies.

Not that I've really been worried about pre-term labor, but it sounds like he'd be totally fine, which makes me happy. I was born on my due date, so I'll assume I'm having an October baby, which is fine with me!

How far along? 34 weeks
Total weight gain: 24.5lbs
Maternity clothes? Yes
Stretch marks? Butt - yes, stomach - no.
Sleep: Some nights are better than others, but I'm actually not too tired for the most part.
Best moment this week: Setting my end date for work. 2 weeks! Wow.
Movement: Even though he's a little cramped in there, he seems to be moving just fine.
Food cravings: None
Gender: boy
Labor Signs: None
Belly Button in or out? it's *technically* out but it hasn't "popped" yet.
What I miss: not getting out of breath after walking around the block with the dogs
What I am looking forward to: Nesting
Milestone: It seems like 34 weeks is a viable/acceptable age for a baby to be born without problems.




















34w

Sunday, August 23, 2009

33 weeks

82.5% there! Holy crap :)

I am feeling so unprepared and I am dying for this nesting instinct to kick in. I have done NOTHING baby-wise this weekend. B and I did a whole bunch of things this weekend together, which has been quite nice. We went out and had Indian food on Friday night, and then yesterday we went to the movies and saw The Time Traveler's Wife, which was excellent. Not as good as the book (when is that the case!?) but very good. Then we went to Cosi and shared a mini-pizza and hot chocolate as it was pouring outside, came home and watched another movie and went to bed. It was a wonderful day. Today I've just been relaxing around the house, and we're having 3 friends over for dinner later so I'm simmering my infamous bolognese.

I've really got to get cracking on the baby stuff! I'm going to organize some things this week for sure, and get the nursery more in order. I have a month left of work, and then I am really going to get a lot done. I can't believe I'll just not be working in 4 short weeks. Not that I've been doing my job forever, but 5 years is a while, and I adore what I do, so it's hard to imagine that I won't be doing it every day. But, it's all worth it!! :)

Wanted to give a shoutout to my friend Tara who wasn't able to make it to my shower, but gave me some unbelievably wonderful gifts - diapers, clothes, socks, lotions/shampoos, toys, stuffed animals, bibs, etc.














This is what Liam is up to this week: This week your baby weighs a little over 4 pounds (heft a pineapple) and has passed the 17-inch mark. He's rapidly losing that wrinkled, alien look and his skeleton is hardening. The bones in his skull aren't fused together, which allows them to move and slightly overlap, thus making it easier for him to fit through the birth canal. These bones don't entirely fuse until early adulthood, so they can grow as his brain and other tissue expands during infancy and childhood.

What a big boy! I have a feeling he might even be a little bigger than that... I have an ultrasound in 2 weeks, so I guess I will find out then though I know that can be off by a pound or so. If he's born full term, my guess is that he'll be close to 8lbs. Maybe 7lbs13oz. That's my official guess :) B continues to say all the time that he's coming early... maybe he'll be a September baby afterall. Just as long as he's not an August baby!!!

How far along? 33 weeks
Total weight gain: 23lbs
Maternity clothes? Yes
Stretch marks? Too many on the left side of my butt to count, but still none on my tummy.
Sleep: Not too bad this week. I still haven't gotten up in the middle of the night to pee!
Best moment this week: Spending some quality time with the husband, as there won't be too much of that left as a family of two :/
Movement: All the time. The rib kicks are hard to handle.
Food cravings: I enjoyed a full day of junk food yesterday, but nothing was really a craving...
Gender: little guy
Labor Signs: None
Belly Button in or out? it's a millimeter out
What I miss: Being able to bend over and pick things up
What I am looking forward to: Getting the nursery organized
Milestone: I'm still grateful for each week which passes successfully. I'm in no rush for Liam to arrive at this point!




















33w

Monday, August 17, 2009

Sunday, August 16, 2009

32 weeks

Woohoo! It's been a pretty good week. Today I had maternity photos shot at a national park (Great Falls) by my dear friend, an amazing photographer. Can't wait until he sends me the shots! For now you'll have to settle for my iPhone 32 week belly, but I guess there are worse things in life...

I'm happy to have made it to 32 weeks. I'm anxious to get to 37 but 32 is a great milestone. Little Liam would likely do very well if he were born now, though I am convinced he is perfectly content where he is. My bump is still pretty high so I'm not too concerned with him being a preemie.

Here's what's going on with my little chicken:
By now, your baby weighs 3.75 pounds (pick up a large jicama) and is about 16.7 inches long, taking up a lot of space in your uterus. You're gaining about a pound a week and roughly half of that goes right to your baby. In fact, he'll gain a third to half of his birth weight during the next 7 weeks as he fattens up for survival outside the womb. He now has toenails, fingernails, and real hair (or at least respectable peach fuzz). His skin is becoming soft and smooth as he plumps up in preparation for birth.

This is where I will stop comparing my baby to fruits and vegetables. I think everyone gets the sense of his size at this point :)

How far along? 32 weeks
Total weight gain: 22lbs
Maternity clothes? 9 times out of 10
Stretch marks? Still using my cocoa/shea butter lotion and hoping for the best
Sleep: Past few days have been crappy. I think my size is starting to get to me!
Best moment this week: Getting the whistle blown at me today for taking maternity photos at Great Falls national park, on some rocks overlooking the falls. As my friend the photographer pointed out, why did the security guy think it was a good idea to blow a whistle at a pregnant lady who could have gotten scared and went tumbling to her death? He was about 5 feet from me. He could have whispered to me and I would have heard him...
Movement: Sometimes even painful ones (foot in the ribs? not sure)
Food cravings: I think I am going to miss out on this experience this pregnancy
Gender: He still has a penis
Labor Signs: Nothing, and grateful for it.
Belly Button in or out? It's teetering
What I miss: Being able to go out with my friends to a bar/restaurant without having to worry about if there's smoke or not.
What I am looking forward to: The nesting phase. Hasn't kicked in yet.
Milestone: 32 weeks was my last big achievement. Next is full term (37 weeks).




















32w

Thursday, August 13, 2009

One year

One year ago today is the day I found out I was pregnant the first time. It was not exactly something I was expecting. I had quit my position with the group practice I belonged to only about 5 or 6 hours prior, and was planning to start my own practice a few weeks later. I was very focused on my career, having just gotten my counseling license 5 days before I found out I was pregnant. The timing was really bad. Nonetheless, I wrapped my mind around the idea of being a mommy and jumped into the planning and preparation. Just 6 short weeks to the day I found out I was pregnant, that pregnancy would be over. I still think about that from time to time - what if I had a 4 month old? Would the baby be a boy or a girl? What would he/she look like?

Miscarriage is so common, but it's still profoundly sad when it happens to you. I consider myself a survivor and a success story, and I cannot wait until my little Liam becomes an outside baby in just a couple months. I know that he wouldn't be here if I hadn't had the miscarriage, and I feel beyond blessed to have this growing baby inside of me.

On another note, I had my first bi-weekly doctor's appointment today. All is well. BP is good, heartrate is good, and I'm measuring 31cm which is right on time for where I should be. I gained 2lbs since my last appointment so I am up 22lbs total (all the dessert I had last night probably helped!) and still hoping to keep my total gain around 30. I think I can do this, provided I don't go too overdue.

31w4d